I’ve been thinking about what my possible passions are for a long time now, trying to figure out what burns inside me, what compels me to wake up in the morning and reach for the stars.
After much consideration I have decided that passion cannot be sustained. For every yin there is a yang and for every up there is a down. If we were to live in a type of sustained passion for an extended period of time, we would burn out. Or if we did manage to sustain a high level of euphoria, eventually that would become our new normal and we would again be seeking some kind of new high.
People are adaptable. Sliding down the same old waterslides, riding the same old rollercoasters, and doing the same old bungee jumps eventually becomes old hat. We adapt and experience fewer waves of excitement during repeat performances of the same old thrill rides.
So what I have discovered is that although I haven’t found anything that makes me want to shout from the rooftops, I think my passion for right now is doing exactly what I am doing: Revitalizing Me. It is really important to me and I am passionate about it in my own way. I also feel that if I go off on another tangent, I will lose my focus here and I don’t want to do that.
But I didn’t make this decision lightly. I made lists, I did some research and for awhile I thought that perhaps I could do a blog about being a Single Mom and all of the things associated with that… I mean I am passionate about being a Mom, I’m always hanging out with my kids, talking about them and trying to be the best Mom I can (although some days are better than others). But I couldn’t really gather any enthusiasm to move it forwards. I’m a somewhat private person and although I air lots of my thoughts and feelings here, I wasn’t sure I wanted to do it about my kids. So after all of that thinking I just decided to focus on what I am already doing, here at Revitalizing Me.
As for all of the lists that I originally came up with, well some of those items have been incorporated into the 52 Actions section of this project. I decided not to make them into more than they were, which is stuff I like to do on occasion or small plans I’d like to try out. Hopefully I will accomplish some of them before the end of the year.
All in all, I guess I had already discovered a new passion without even realizing it. Passion doesn’t always have to burn brightly, sometimes it smoulders in the background, sometimes igniting a burst of flames but sometimes just producing steady heat.