I’m uber excited!!! Adventure is coming my way! During the last few days, I decided to take my kids on a road trip to see Katy Perry this summer and my boss asked me if I want to go to Vancouver next month!!
I know, can you believe it?
The road trip was kind of a spur of the moment idea and will cost big bucks but the 3 of us will have an A-MAZING time. I was actually considering not going when I discussed it with Sven and he said I should definitely do it.
I thought he would be all practical and say it was a lot of money, but what he said was, “Do it, you won’t regret it.” And I’m quite sure that I won’t regret it. Plus, it will be so exciting and it will make an awesome memory so I put down a deposit and we are doing it!!!
The day after that, my boss asked me if I wanted to go to a conference in Vancouver. First of all, I’ll be working a booth and forced to network which I hate,but the conference is definitely going to interesting and I`ll be exposed to a different culture, plus I get to go to Vancouver and I have never been before! I’m so excited about going that even the thought of exploring Vancouver by myself has not got me down. I’m going to bring my camera, take some pictures and just enjoy.
I have been itching to go somewhere for ages and this trip to Vancouver falls on a week that I can actually go and leave the kids with their Dad. And it will be Springtime and there’ll be mountains and the Pacific ocean and flowers and grass. I am all over that! Can you tell I’m excited?
I was hoping for travel adventures with other people but that plan fell through so I’m just going to suck it up and have my own adventure! And then have another one with my kids. Adventures are good for the soul so I’m glad that I have grabbed both opportunities.
I think there are always the possibilities of adventures, you just have to agree to take part in them. I’m really excited that I said YES!
My youngest daughter was talking to her Dad on the phone the other day and his girlfriend was with him. My daughter heard her speaking and wanted to talk to her too. After a brief chat between the two of them my daughter told her “I love you.”
I have to admit that my first reaction in overhearing this was to flinch a bit. I don’t want to say that the statement hurt, it really didn’t, I guess it just caught me off guard.
I’m not concerned that she will replace me or that my girls will love her more than me. I’m their Mom. I have a great relationship with them and they love me a lot, just like I love them a lot. I don’t have any insecurities there.
I think the issue is that my kids are having a relationship with a woman who I have never met. She has been a part of their lives for over a year now. My ex has been with her for somewhere around 2.5 years (although I don’t know the exact dates) so I don’t think she is going anywhere soon, and I have never met her.
I have never asked to meet her and he has never brought it up but I think it’s time.
I’ve looked her up on Facebook before and based on a purely physical evaluation I thought she was prettier and skinnier than me and that made me feel less than. Less than what, I’m not sure, but I guess it had to do with feeling inadequate, feeling feelings about how my ex likes her more than me. I guess that made me not want to meet her. I’ve heard about her. My kids like her and say nice things about her. She sounds like a good person.
I think it is time for me to put on my big girl panties and to meet this woman who spends so much time with my kids. I think it’s time to take another step forward and move onto new chapters of my life.
I’ve had a recurring message keep popping up during the last week or so. It’s pretty much been exclusively popping up in my Facebook news feed (so maybe that just says something about the stuff I subscribe to) but the first time I saw it, it struck a chord with me.
The first note read:
“Isn’t it beautiful that when you can finally let go of the ending of your story then you step into the new chapter of your next life?”
And then I got this today:
I think someone is trying to tell me something. (There was one other similar message a couple of days ago but I didn’t keep that one.)
The funny thing is that I thought I had moved on for the most part. If this year hasn’t been about moving on and turning the page, I’m not sure what else I can do. Unless this message is about something more recent… like Sven. My relationship with Sven is going nowhere fast. He is obviously not ready for more than his current amount of effort. And I’m not so happy with his current amount of effort…
He’s been better recently but then things happened this past week which made me unhappy again.
However, I should probably give him some slack since Christmas is a bad time of year for him. His father passed away when he was 5 and his mother didn’t deal with it well which meant Christmas kind of sucked. And then his mother passed away when he was 18, at Christmastime. So… he has reason to not be real keen on this time of year.
But I don’t think it’s just that. He’s pretty bitter about his ex and her boyfriend. He would have stayed in his bad marriage indefinitely if she hadn’t cheated on him. I think it is too soon for him to actually be in the type of relationship that I would like.
That means that I have to go back to the drawing board. I won’t break up with him before Christmas, that would just be mean. But it looks like I’ll be back to the single girl status in the New Year. At least that is how I feel today, perhaps everything will take a turn for the better in the next few weeks.
And then again, maybe my ‘new chapter’ is not about my romantic life at all. Thoughts?
A thought popped into my head the other day about how I view certain areas of my life with a feeling of scarcity. And by certain areas I mean the whole relationship side of things. I hadn’t given it this label before but once the “scarcity” word popped into my head I realized that it was very accurate.
Even during this past year, I have been focusing on how to create happiness when I am alone. Now it is important, to be happy by yourself and with who you are, but part of the reasoning behind this idea was that I figured that I probably wouldn’t find another long-term relationship. If I am thinking those negative thoughts then I’m sending them out to the universe. So here’s the deal, I’m not going to be thinking those thoughts any more (or I’m going to work on not thinking them). What I will be doing is welcoming an abundance of connections into my life. And by connections, I mean that I want to feel some type of connection with people, both men and women.
I’m at a place in my life where I want to let people in, I want to feel connected. When I was younger it wasn’t an issue, I had lots of close friends. Then when my marriage ended I closed myself off. I built up walls. I couldn’t connect with men or women.
I think I have knocked down some of those walls or at least have punched a few holes in them. So this means that it is time for me to welcome an abundance of connections into my life.
English: Palm island to the left (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
It is harder now though. We are no longer kids playing together in a sandbox, we are now adults with our own versions of baggage. I can’t make others leave their baggage elsewhere but I can do my best to let mine go. I’ve been working on that and will continue to work on that.
Connecting with others on a personal level will lend itself well to living a happier life. No man is an island, no woman either.
Here’s a reminder to be present in your life.
Today is a gift. Open your eyes and your heart to it. Experience it in its glory. There will never be another day like this one. Take the time to see what is right before you and to let it envelop you with its beauty. There is always beauty.
I came across this gem of a video the other day and wanted to share it with you as it is a reminder to appreciate today, to connect with nature and to look for the beauty in your surroundings.
I’ve decided to keep my challenge for November relatively easy. Being back at work has cut into my free time in a big way so my plan is to use the KISS method this month – Keep It Simple Stupid.
This month’s challenge is to eat more fruits and veggies again.
I haven’t been consistent with my fruit and veggie consumption these days so it’s time to get back to eating better. My plan is to have a minimum of 3 smoothies a week. I also want to combine this with exercising 3 days a week. November is a great time to look after yourself especially with the excess of Christmas right around the corner.
One other thing I want to do this month is to catch up on the things that I have fallen behind on in my writing course. I’ve missed out on some of the reading and I haven’t watched some of the videos so I need to try my best to get up-to-date on what is happening with my writing peeps.
That’s it, keeping it as simple as I can. Feel free to join me on the quest to eat better and exercise, November seems like the perfect time of year for that :).
A “body opponent bag” on a pedestal mount. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
My youngest has wanted to take a boxing class for ages. I finally tracked down a small place in town that does all ages classes. I decided to try it out with her and last night was our first night.
What a workout!
My eyelids were sweating by the time we got out of there. Luckily I have been exercising some during the last year otherwise I never would have made it through the class. The warm up and cool down consisted of jumping jacks, skipping, sit-ups, push ups, squats, bicycle sit-ups, oh my God. Then we put on the gloves and did boxing drills. Punching bags, in the ring, more punching bags. We even gave this suspicious looking guy a shot to the chin.
I was exhausted when we got out of there and I can feel those sit-ups today. I think we’re going to go back though. This is something that we can do together and we had a good time doing it. The only downside is that the gym smells like a gym by the end of the workout. Ewww!
So even though I can’t fit badminton into my schedule when I have the kids I will definitely be able to make this work if I’m going WITH the kids. Did I mention badminton starts next week? I’m very excited.
Who knew I’d be excited about exercising??