I’m uber excited!!! Adventure is coming my way! During the last few days, I decided to take my kids on a road trip to see Katy Perry this summer and my boss asked me if I want to go to Vancouver next month!!
I know, can you believe it?
The road trip was kind of a spur of the moment idea and will cost big bucks but the 3 of us will have an A-MAZING time. I was actually considering not going when I discussed it with Sven and he said I should definitely do it.
I thought he would be all practical and say it was a lot of money, but what he said was, “Do it, you won’t regret it.” And I’m quite sure that I won’t regret it. Plus, it will be so exciting and it will make an awesome memory so I put down a deposit and we are doing it!!!
The day after that, my boss asked me if I wanted to go to a conference in Vancouver. First of all, I’ll be working a booth and forced to network which I hate,but the conference is definitely going to interesting and I`ll be exposed to a different culture, plus I get to go to Vancouver and I have never been before! I’m so excited about going that even the thought of exploring Vancouver by myself has not got me down. I’m going to bring my camera, take some pictures and just enjoy.
I have been itching to go somewhere for ages and this trip to Vancouver falls on a week that I can actually go and leave the kids with their Dad. And it will be Springtime and there’ll be mountains and the Pacific ocean and flowers and grass. I am all over that! Can you tell I’m excited?
I was hoping for travel adventures with other people but that plan fell through so I’m just going to suck it up and have my own adventure! And then have another one with my kids. Adventures are good for the soul so I’m glad that I have grabbed both opportunities.
I think there are always the possibilities of adventures, you just have to agree to take part in them. I’m really excited that I said YES!
My youngest daughter was talking to her Dad on the phone the other day and his girlfriend was with him. My daughter heard her speaking and wanted to talk to her too. After a brief chat between the two of them my daughter told her “I love you.”
I have to admit that my first reaction in overhearing this was to flinch a bit. I don’t want to say that the statement hurt, it really didn’t, I guess it just caught me off guard.
I’m not concerned that she will replace me or that my girls will love her more than me. I’m their Mom. I have a great relationship with them and they love me a lot, just like I love them a lot. I don’t have any insecurities there.
I think the issue is that my kids are having a relationship with a woman who I have never met. She has been a part of their lives for over a year now. My ex has been with her for somewhere around 2.5 years (although I don’t know the exact dates) so I don’t think she is going anywhere soon, and I have never met her.
I have never asked to meet her and he has never brought it up but I think it’s time.
I’ve looked her up on Facebook before and based on a purely physical evaluation I thought she was prettier and skinnier than me and that made me feel less than. Less than what, I’m not sure, but I guess it had to do with feeling inadequate, feeling feelings about how my ex likes her more than me. I guess that made me not want to meet her. I’ve heard about her. My kids like her and say nice things about her. She sounds like a good person.
I think it is time for me to put on my big girl panties and to meet this woman who spends so much time with my kids. I think it’s time to take another step forward and move onto new chapters of my life.
I’ve had a recurring message keep popping up during the last week or so. It’s pretty much been exclusively popping up in my Facebook news feed (so maybe that just says something about the stuff I subscribe to) but the first time I saw it, it struck a chord with me.
The first note read:
“Isn’t it beautiful that when you can finally let go of the ending of your story then you step into the new chapter of your next life?”
And then I got this today:
I think someone is trying to tell me something. (There was one other similar message a couple of days ago but I didn’t keep that one.)
The funny thing is that I thought I had moved on for the most part. If this year hasn’t been about moving on and turning the page, I’m not sure what else I can do. Unless this message is about something more recent… like Sven. My relationship with Sven is going nowhere fast. He is obviously not ready for more than his current amount of effort. And I’m not so happy with his current amount of effort…
He’s been better recently but then things happened this past week which made me unhappy again.
However, I should probably give him some slack since Christmas is a bad time of year for him. His father passed away when he was 5 and his mother didn’t deal with it well which meant Christmas kind of sucked. And then his mother passed away when he was 18, at Christmastime. So… he has reason to not be real keen on this time of year.
But I don’t think it’s just that. He’s pretty bitter about his ex and her boyfriend. He would have stayed in his bad marriage indefinitely if she hadn’t cheated on him. I think it is too soon for him to actually be in the type of relationship that I would like.
That means that I have to go back to the drawing board. I won’t break up with him before Christmas, that would just be mean. But it looks like I’ll be back to the single girl status in the New Year. At least that is how I feel today, perhaps everything will take a turn for the better in the next few weeks.
And then again, maybe my ‘new chapter’ is not about my romantic life at all. Thoughts?
A thought popped into my head the other day about how I view certain areas of my life with a feeling of scarcity. And by certain areas I mean the whole relationship side of things. I hadn’t given it this label before but once the “scarcity” word popped into my head I realized that it was very accurate.
Even during this past year, I have been focusing on how to create happiness when I am alone. Now it is important, to be happy by yourself and with who you are, but part of the reasoning behind this idea was that I figured that I probably wouldn’t find another long-term relationship. If I am thinking those negative thoughts then I’m sending them out to the universe. So here’s the deal, I’m not going to be thinking those thoughts any more (or I’m going to work on not thinking them). What I will be doing is welcoming an abundance of connections into my life. And by connections, I mean that I want to feel some type of connection with people, both men and women.
I’m at a place in my life where I want to let people in, I want to feel connected. When I was younger it wasn’t an issue, I had lots of close friends. Then when my marriage ended I closed myself off. I built up walls. I couldn’t connect with men or women.
I think I have knocked down some of those walls or at least have punched a few holes in them. So this means that it is time for me to welcome an abundance of connections into my life.
English: Palm island to the left (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
It is harder now though. We are no longer kids playing together in a sandbox, we are now adults with our own versions of baggage. I can’t make others leave their baggage elsewhere but I can do my best to let mine go. I’ve been working on that and will continue to work on that.
Connecting with others on a personal level will lend itself well to living a happier life. No man is an island, no woman either.
Here’s a reminder to be present in your life.
Today is a gift. Open your eyes and your heart to it. Experience it in its glory. There will never be another day like this one. Take the time to see what is right before you and to let it envelop you with its beauty. There is always beauty.
I came across this gem of a video the other day and wanted to share it with you as it is a reminder to appreciate today, to connect with nature and to look for the beauty in your surroundings.
I’ve decided to keep my challenge for November relatively easy. Being back at work has cut into my free time in a big way so my plan is to use the KISS method this month – Keep It Simple Stupid.
This month’s challenge is to eat more fruits and veggies again.
I haven’t been consistent with my fruit and veggie consumption these days so it’s time to get back to eating better. My plan is to have a minimum of 3 smoothies a week. I also want to combine this with exercising 3 days a week. November is a great time to look after yourself especially with the excess of Christmas right around the corner.
One other thing I want to do this month is to catch up on the things that I have fallen behind on in my writing course. I’ve missed out on some of the reading and I haven’t watched some of the videos so I need to try my best to get up-to-date on what is happening with my writing peeps.
That’s it, keeping it as simple as I can. Feel free to join me on the quest to eat better and exercise, November seems like the perfect time of year for that :).
A “body opponent bag” on a pedestal mount. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
My youngest has wanted to take a boxing class for ages. I finally tracked down a small place in town that does all ages classes. I decided to try it out with her and last night was our first night.
What a workout!
My eyelids were sweating by the time we got out of there. Luckily I have been exercising some during the last year otherwise I never would have made it through the class. The warm up and cool down consisted of jumping jacks, skipping, sit-ups, push ups, squats, bicycle sit-ups, oh my God. Then we put on the gloves and did boxing drills. Punching bags, in the ring, more punching bags. We even gave this suspicious looking guy a shot to the chin.
I was exhausted when we got out of there and I can feel those sit-ups today. I think we’re going to go back though. This is something that we can do together and we had a good time doing it. The only downside is that the gym smells like a gym by the end of the workout. Ewww!
So even though I can’t fit badminton into my schedule when I have the kids I will definitely be able to make this work if I’m going WITH the kids. Did I mention badminton starts next week? I’m very excited.
Who knew I’d be excited about exercising??
Recently, I’ve been spending a lot of time trying out some of the different methods of Energy Healing that are out there today. I guess it all started when I began looking into meditation, then I came across a project called Heal Your Life which was doing intro videos to things like Qi Gong, Tapping, Chakra healing, smile healing, etc. I tried out several but my favourite had to do with the chakras. I think part of the reason why is that the chakras have been around for a long time and are also part of the meditation program that I’m trying to master.
English: Chakra picture produced by AuraStar2000TM bio-energy sensor (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
There are 7 chakras and each chakra affects different parts of your life. Chakras are thought to be centres of life force or energy. You can have open/ strong or closed/ weak chakras and each chakra can act independently from one another or they can work together. Of course they are most powerful when they are all strong and working together. When your chakras are strong or open, it is easier for good things to come into your life.
Based on the little bit of experimenting that I have done, my chakras are a mess, lol. But I think that the work I have done in the past 8 months has made some moderate improvements in them. I feel like that things are starting to head in the right direction for me.
I’m know I’m getting a little hippy-ish with talk of energy healing but I really believe that there are some viable options out there in terms of alternative medicine. Most of these forms of energy healing are based in ancient far East traditions and religions. They have been around for thousands of years. So who am I to dispute energy healing and meditation as methods to living a happier, more abundant life?
I have been practising an Abundance Mantra for several months now and I feel that it is helping me. Even if you don’t believe in energy healing or meditation you can’t dispute that focusing on the positive aspects of life is healthier than focusing on the negative.
If you spend all of your time enveloped in the negative, it doesn’t take long for you to develop a pretty negative opinion of everything and life itself. If you focus on the positive (which is sometimes difficult to do) then you have a greater chance to see opportunities that are presented to you, you have a healthier outlook on life and you are a happier person in general.
I know that some days I complain about my life and the fact that I have been unemployed for 10 months but the fact is that I have been on a great journey during this time which probably would not have been possible if I had been working and stressed like in my previous job. And that journey has led me to explore energy healing and I kind of like it. Maybe you should check it out too.
Photo credit: Wikipedia
I have this 4.5 km loop that I walk. I don’t walk it every day, but fairly often.
A few weeks ago I was out walking, and as it started to sprinkle, I hoped feverishly that I would make it home before the rain. Luck was not on my side that day.
It didn’t take long before it started raining buckets, so much so that I actually ran to get home faster. I had to take my glasses off because the rain was so heavy that I couldn’t see and when I did get home, I had to wring out my sneakers. I’m sure the people in the cars who passed me on the road were wondering what in the hell I was doing out there, lol.
Now let me tell you that I am not a runner. I’m not built for running and the last time I ran was during the summer when I was 19 or 20 and a good friend made me run with her. I don’t really like it, it bothers my knees and I have to wear an extra bra or something like that.
Yesterday, while I was walking, I felt like I should try running again. I’m not sure why other than perhaps I am in better shape than I have been in awhile. During the 4.5 kms I ran for 4 short stints. I’m not sure how far I ran or how long but I actually ran nonetheless. Well, it was probably more like a jog, but definitely faster than walking.
During one of these short bursts of speed, I passed a runner on the other side of the road and she smiled and waved at me. She actually turned her head to smile and wave, and it was at that moment that I felt like a runner. I felt a connection, a type of camaraderie, like I was part of a special group.
Does all this mean that I’m going to become a runner? Probably not, lol. But never say never. I could attempt a few short bursts of speed again. It does make the walk go a bit faster :).
I watched a video from SARK, Susan Ariel Rainbow Kennedy, you can find it on her website AwakenWithSark.com. She promises to help me (and anyone else who watches her videos) to connect with my (their) personal power. I haven’t read any of her books but my sister has so I decided why not, what have I got to lose?
I recommend watching it. Maybe you won’t believe that you can connect with your inner-wise self, maybe you won’t even believe that you have one. But I believe that I have something inside of me that can help me. I believe that I can access an inner peace and inner joy if I can find the right key. I believe that I can live a life of passion and worth. I seem to be having trouble finding the key though. I’m hoping that her program will help me.
The big thing that she has you do during this video is write a note to yourself from your inner-wise self. Recently, yesterday as a matter of fact, I had a bit of a revelation that I often don’t feel like I am enough. I don’t feel like I know enough or am smart enough, I don’t feel like I am talented enough, I don’t feel like I am skinny enough, attractive enough, nice enough. I don’t feel like I am enough. I try to quiet my inner self critic but it doesn’t always work. So today I am enlisting the help of my inner-wise self to help me silence my inner self critic. Here is the letter my inner-wise self wrote to me:
Ah, my beauty, I miss you and love you. You are enough! Even when you feel less than, know that you are enough. You are beautiful and wise and you can do whatever you want to do. Don’t be afraid to shine, don’t be afraid to expose your inner thoughts and beauty. Those who love you like I do love every part of you and they will always be there. You are not alone. I am with you, in your heart, soul and spirit. I am your hand to hold when you need it. Embrace me like I do you. For you are enough.
I’m looking forward to the follow-up videos. They promise to help me find my creative dream courage. They promise to help my creativity flow. I would like that. And I would like to find my personal power for I seem to have lost it along the way.